HELLOOOO DEARS WHO READ MY BLOG, WHOEVER YOU ARE! (:

i've officially moved to wordpress! (: i think after years of using blogger, it's time for a change of interface. and i think wordpress is quite cool because it actually allows me to tag and categorize my posts with me knowing what categories and tags i have. LOLS. i'm still figuring things out, so the whole blog is incomplete. but, it's getting there. i'm blogging there officially, so it's goodbye my rainbows and fairies for now. i know i'll miss this blog somewhat cause it contains many memories. don't worry, it won't be deleted though. so if you want to rake my past up, feel free. LOLS.

so here it is, catch me at http://treasuresintheattic.wordpress.com

LOVE YOU PEOPLE, and remember to RE-LINK! :D

and it's really just you and me

crunch time is here, just like every other semester that i've been through and am going to face in NUS, it rolls around without warning. the multitude of tests and assignments that come around, just doesn't make sense and by the time you realize what you're supposed to do, it's already time for the finals. some people say that you should have known when it knocks on your front door, but these exams, they just creep up on you from the back door instead. and you just don't know where you went wrong and what you forgot about.

seriously, i think this semester has been one of my toughest. challenging mentally, physically and emotionally as well. plans, plans and more plans that never get executed because i don't really know how to get people to do them, because i'm afraid of how the turn out will be like. because, because, because. but next semester, the ball's gonna be in a different court, and i'm gonna be more decisive about sending things out.

but before i start doing my reflections for this semester (and the year in general cause it's gonna be december soon!) i have to cross the hurdle of one more essay and three final exams. in between, there's LTC and i can't wait for dimsum buffet with my sociology project mates! :D exciting! and happening.

unfortunately for me, i'm not going clubbing anymore, at least until the whole season of academic busyness is over. and i think that's gonna be a good decision. supperclub on saturday should have shut all my cravings down. and well, i've spent two nights sleeping over at qiaoqiao's place. so i think that should tide me over for the rest of the semester of "me"-time. had great fun at iluma and bugis with her today, or rather yesterday cause it's 3:26am right now. tomorrow's back to hall, and hitting the book ... NO! it's hitting that damn esssay. ):

I MISSED A LIVERPOOL GAME BECAUSE I WAS DOING AN ESSAY THE LAST TIME ROUND. AND THE NEXT TIME ROUND, I'LL MISS IT BECAUSE OF EXAMS. dammnit. i so badly want to watch liverpool play. i don't totally understand the game, but everytime i watch, it makes me feel happy. (:

well, seriously randompost at a seriously randomtime about really randomtopics. & OH! ONE MORE THING. i'm leaving this blog soon. i think it's time to start a new blog for 2010. it's a new year, a decade has passed since the dawn of the millennium, and i should grow away from this blog that has so many juvenile memories. time to start being more grown up.

the little girl's in love too. but it's unrequited, unfortunately. and the new blog will help me stay away from thoughts that i'm not supposed to have cause, well. it'll keep me busy thinking about other stuff. (: i'll leave the link here when i leave so you know where to find me.

i won't vanish, you don't have to worry, cause as before, my life is like an open sheet of paper here on my blogs, i say everything i want to and everything that i kinda shouldn't, but this is my world, and the only place that i can really be me without being hurtfully judged.

goodnight world,
xoxo.

cause when things come to this point ...

body clock's totally screwed cause i'm sleeping during the day and studying at night instead. tried to put my body clock back to normal, but it's not working yet. otherwise, i wouldn't be up at this hour. sighs. it's such a problematic thing when you can study only at night. ):

sighs, the term is coming to an end and exams are coming soon. and things between hmm, are not really going very well indeed. but i don't think i want to say anything right now cause i just want to focus on my exams. and then block stuff. sighs.

you're all i ever need, i think.

from lady antebellum's "all we'd ever need".



idk what my own feelings are anymore. but what's going on around me is more than enough to keep me from thinking about him. but what doesn't change is the fact that everytime i'm with him or just talking to him, i never fail to find a smile on my face. he just has that effect on me. and somedays, when i'm down and out, all i want to do is just have a random chat with him, because i know that that's all i'll ever need.

but do i like him enough to want to take it to another level, idk. i regret somethings that i didn't do. but i'm at the same time glad that i didn't do them. it's a confusing feeling that doesn't make sense to me. but, i have no time to make sense of it, and it's left as a lingering thing that just doesn't dissipate.

for now, this is all that i need.

baby, be mine?

htht sessions always make me think even more about things. sometimes it keeps me going. sometimes, it impedes my progress. but at the end of the day, sighs. i still don't know.

and i dreamt of you, but i don't know who you are.

fell asleep for a while waiting for some documents to load and i dreamt the scariest, yet most amazing thing. it was a dream, definitely. but what was more interesting was that it was a continuation of a dream that i had a few weeks back. it was a dream where i was out clubbing with a guy friend, whose face i couldn't remember nor see. and we went into a club and had loads of fun but later realized was full of vampires, who didn't do anything to us. so this time round, we left safely.

today's dream, we went back to the same club again and this time, we met the same vampire guys as in the dream before. they were supposedly harmless and thus, we drank a little with them and talked here and there. but suddenly, one of them wanted to dance with me and i rejected. they got violent and tried to force me to. my guy friend tried to stop them, but one of them bit me on the hand, hard enough to leave a mark. and we started running.

running around, trying to evade them, i hid in the washroom. but they came in. my guy friend was nowhere to be seen, and i was struggling against the vampires. at the crucial moment, when one of them was about to bite me, that unknown guy friend rushed in with a knife from goodness knows where and stabbed the vampire saying "don't you do anything to the woman i treasure the most".

and i woke up with that line ringing in my ear and my left wrist throbbing from the "pain". it felt so real, it was scary. but i want to know who that unknown guy is. there were many times in the dream i know where i could see his face. but it was never clear. sighs. i don't know who he is, but i really want to know.