|10.10am|

a new day has dawned! hahas . yesterday's pool games was imba. :P loved the feeling of pool water. had fun in some weird plastic ball, but I think I'm going to start swimming at the SRC pool more often. after pool games was a mad rush for me. going back to hall to bathe then rushing home to get stuff and then rushing to another campsite to play game master and then back to hall to sleep! and that was the end of crazy day one. :)

day two is not so crazy because there's a lot of stuff that I can't play today. lols. so I'm the surrogate councillor. lols. standing in for nobody. but it's quite cool. cause it's like watching the fun and not having to get down and dirty. sorry, princess mode is on today cause I'm feeling quite tired. my group, "sohzai" is really quite "zhai" (colloquial hokkien for really super good) lols. will update later on in the day!

|1.09pm|

it's lunch time now and the group is at ECP. :) we were at kallang in the morning. lols. so it was kayaking, the cage (indoor football) and then dragonboating. technically the whole of today is sea sports with two land sports incorporated. had a fun time dragonboating and we won the other group! hahas. played some filler games and then took the crazy lorry to where we are now! so now, we're waitIng for the next activity to start and we're talking and stuff.

oh! hahas. I've become the photographer. :)

|5.03pm|

on the bus heading back to school. the afternoon was really fun-filled! :) I think I'm starting to enjoy myself more and more as the days go by. the afternoon was filled with skating, frisbeeing and windsurfing. had a great time playing around and talking to the people. yeah, I'm openly crashing already. hahas. like the whole world knows. but yeah. I think I deserve this short camp break before becoming a full time rag dancer.

hall "duties" are starting to call out to me because we're going to start hall life in like about a month's time. I'm looking forward to the new term because of the new responsibilities that will be placed on my shoulders but am also apprehensive at the same time because I am quite worried about my studies. as blockhead, it's going to be very different. my double degree, hopefully I'll be able to get and keep it.

ah. the view of the singapore flyer as we sail on the expressway. I'm still looking for that someone who will bring me there. hahas. but until then, I don't think I'll want to go there. didn't see the boy today cause the whole time we were at opposite ends of the activity rotation. hahas. but it's inconsequential right now because sports camp is all about having fun on our own. that's why the agreement. sighs. will it be too much to say that I miss him? yeah, I think so. cause we're not even together. sickening quelyn who doesn't know her limits. thinking about it, will this really be a relationship where I'll cut and run when I'm tired of it? idk.

we're playing station games. update later! :)

oh, if you still don't know, currently, i'm crashing sports camp and the reason why i can blog is because i'm staying in my hall room where it's home away from home! just finished some sports showcase thingy this morning, it was awesomest, even though i didn't really play much. i mean, hello. i'm crashing, so it's not very nice if i take the "place" of the real freshies and take away their chances at trying things out. i think i might try out the archery club thingy next semester and become a sports woman. (please, all girls have to continually add to their "repertoire" of things that she can do. it's only wise because that's how you attract the more powerful guys, by being a powerful independent woman yourself. *smirks*)

but oh goodness. it was seriously fun to the maxxxx. saw the boy! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOYYY! :) YOU'RE LIKE 21. i was going to shout out "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" then i remembered that he doesn't wanna get sabo-ed/ so like, being a nice girl and all, i didn't say anything. but i think his OGL probably knows, so yeah. he's probably going to be sabo-ed anyway. hopefully it'll be a positive sports camp experience. lols.

(yeah. i think i'm slowly falling deep. and knowing it makes things so much harder. shite.)

oh, and i got a forfeit, but at least it wasn't those super scary ones that we all hear about. please, those are just rumors by people who are sore thumbs that they didn't go for sports camp. seriously, running to a wall and running back, how serious can that get. stupid people who make rumors should die and vanish into thin air because they're polluting other people's minds.

anywayy. they're playing pool games later at about 2plus. (i feel like i'm a reporter that goes "reporting live from sports camp 2009" because i have a laptop and i can blog everyday.) i hope they go to the beach tomorrow. i can't wait to go to sentosa, no matter how retarded it is to go "over the sea" for a nice day of sun and sea. (seriously, why is sentosa the only beach in the whole of singapore that is actually attractive and nice. ECP/WCP's beaches are literally bitches, dirty and smelly too.)

no, but seriously. i know this will definitely sound weird coming from me, but i love the sun. i just don't like getting tannnned and darkkk. see, that's the difference. i wish that there was a way where i could go into the sun and never turn dark. those melanine-blocking pills nonsense just doesn't work as well as it's supposed to be. and there's like a maximum amount that you can consume, so i'm not going to be stupid and consume more than what i'm supposed to.

argh. now i'm thinking what the hell should i wear for pool games later on. i have NO swim wear. just a bikini. and kanngg (who very nicely and lovingly took me into her group) says that i can just wear FBTs and a sports bra down into the water. ok. technically, i don't own any sports bras. i only have uhh. yoga bras (even though i don't do yoga). damnn screwed, i know. don't tell me about it. hahas. SERIOUSLY. I HAVE LESS THAN 15MINS TO DECIDE AND CHANGE!

and i just realized that my new blog skin doesn't like separate posts that are made on the same day. that sucks. so i'll have to keep adding on to the post before if i blog twice/thrice on the same dayy. sighs. RIGHT. WHAT SHOULD I WEAR. BLEAHHH, hates and loves at the same time. can i be skinnier? lols. nevermind.

baby i love you
and i never want to let you know

finally, a little time to myself to start like really blogging again. :) i'm actually in the midst of packing my room, but i guess i could do with a little time off from the shifting and throwing and rearranging. been doing it for the past few days amidst my super crazy schedule that, seriously, goes on and on and on. oh, did i mention, i'm actually supposed to be quarantined and goodness knows what other shit. it ends today though, and i'm still feeling fine. so it doesn't really matter because i believe i won't have that super irritating virus thingy that's going around.

tomorrow i'm going for sports camp. not the full 6days, but just about 4days. and then the next 4days i'll be facilitating at LTC held in JBAC. i seriously do not know how i am going to manage it, but i know i will. seriously, this is the last "exciting" thing that i am going to do for like this holidays because i'm going to experience a different kind of excitement when i get back from all the camps - the excitement of RAG! :D i seriously hope that, he will join rag in his faculty/hall this year. then there'll be more chances of him being around in school and stuff like that. it'll make life so much more fun.

went out with DANIA JACOBS yesterday! :D babe, xoxo. i owe you a treat when i get back from the crazy plummet of camps. and we had a great time catching up on each other's lives and stuff like that. one thing that i took away was her telling me "don't be afraid to fall in love with him". i think that i've been playing around with people's hearts for too long that i've forgotten what it means to love. but, he brought back a glimmer of something that is familiar. i actually know that between us, is definitely not love. but i think i might just fall in deep. because of the way he smiles. because of the things he says. because of his gentleness and soft touch. because of the way he holds my hand so tight. because of the way he hugs me to bring him closer to his himself.

honestly, i'm not used to such treatment because my past boyfriends never did, and probably never will match up to the extent of affection that he shows me. i'm not used to being treated so nicely and preciously. i'm not used to being held so tightly that it gives me a sense of security.

but the "relationship" is just so, well. not there. because it's built around things that don't last. i think i don't deserve him and he thinks that he's not good enough for anyone. dear me. i don't know what this whole thing is about but, boy do i know that i want to stay with him by his side for a long time and continuously tell him that he is handsome and worth it. yet, i know there's nothing we both can do about it because of many, many issues that present itself against us, against me. for one, he likes me but doesn't love me. and because i know that, i force myself not to fall in. hahas. weird relationship that we have, definitely.

and so, baby i love you. but i never want to let you know. i want to keep the status quo and thus, i'll stop what i've been doing the past few days. and well, just let something take place somewhere else, if it happens. God, i know he's not for me, but i really do like him.

the next few days will be camp galore. so, i don't think i'll need to be thinking about him because there's just going to be too much on my mind. we'll see how things go and then, yeah. we'll just see how things go.

come to think of if, it already has been almost 10years since i've known them. :)

#1: went for LTC Belay Schoo @ JBAC. seriously, waking up at 5am is really no joke (because reporting time is 7am.) but had a lot of fun refreshing my ropes course and meeting the other facils, especially the ones whom i don't really know.

#2: spent some great time with Ngern, Angie, Chuyi, WeiHao, Yoga, Fauwwaz, Amal and Choy (differing periods of time, but same location and activity) because it was just great fun with friends, talking crap around a BBQ pit and trying to get the food to cook. lols. hilarious.

#3: spent an AWESOME time catching up with dania. :) XOXO girl.

#4: unexpectedly met Uncle John and his company's people. and had a great time listening to their conversations on the many thing that make life what it is.

#5: I MISSED AUSTIN POWERS FIRST OG OUTING. :(

if i said i missed you, would you believe me?
happy birthday boy, though i know you'll probably never see this.

MORE THINGS HAPPENED. i think because i'm going to be quite busy, i'm going to blog in this format until i have the time to actually sit down and write in detail. :P

#1: supposed to go to Camp Castaway at St John's Island, but in the end i couldn't go because there was some mistake in the ferry timing and stuff like that and if i went for camp, i wouldn't be able to make it for LTC Facilitator's Training on Saturday morning.

#2: went to school TWICE this week on days that there were no Rag practice, first to visit the business library and second to get my card to my new room in hall. and i am moving in tomorrow! goodness, the number of times i change check-in dates is like headache even to me.

#3: when i went to school to go to the business library, i met JINGYAN in school by coincidence and we went to Ngee Ann City for dinner @ the Crystal Jade La Mian XLB. hahas. that was like the highlight of her day because in the morning she spent 6hrs trying to renew her passport. like wth. 6hrs.

#4: met up with Nicole today for brunch and we went to Cedele. had a great time catching up and just randomly talking and stuff. :) friendships are just so precious to me and i wouldn't want it any way else. heees.

#5: met QiaoQiao after brunch with Nicole and we went bikini shopping. actually i was supposed to buy a tankini, but after that, we decided that i actually look better in a bikini, so i bought a nice pink one. :) really happy with my buy, but i am not going to buy another bikini anytime soon. i think i tried on at least 10tankinis and 25bikinis before deciding on the one that i got. sighs. but it was fun! :D

#6: i'm going for back to back camp from the 29th of june to the 6th of july. YES. 8days. hardcore camps. 29thjune-2ndjuly = sports camp (as the most beautiful and energetic crasher there can be around) 3rdjuly-6thjuly = LTC where i will be a facilitator to the next batch of NYJC leaders. i think i will burn out after the 6th.

#7: i randomly realized that i think i do like him. because of his smile. because of the laughter that seems to be jumping in his eyes. because he appreciates me the way i am. because of his hugs that make me feel i could be like that forever. but at the same time, i know that we probably won't be together because i don't think he likes me much. hahas. random right. i hope he never sees this, because i want us to stay the way we are in the status quo right now. i don't want him to change just because of what i think because i like him the way he is now.

#8: while packing my room, i found a lot of interesting random things and pictures that seem to come from so long ago, but i'm glad i found them because it's like finding a memory that you've lost so long ago. recovering it is like :) happiness. wheee.

#9: i'm still not as convicted as i should be in the way of Christianity. but i guess that i'll still continue going for cellgroup and service because i'm still wanting to find that conviction.

#10: I CAN'T WAIT TO CRASH SPORTS CAMP! :D

loads of things happened. :)

#1: i finally shifted the furniture in my room. it's kinda, well, half-done because i'm still clearing stuff on the other side of the room, but so far, so good. it's looking up real well. i'll have my reading corner, music corner, study area and enough space to dance in! :) proud of myself for designing the interior of my room this way. BUT! the room is currently super messy. i'd sue someone, but there's no one for me to sue. LOLS.

#2: i went for dance practice today and was pleasantly surprised because i'm learning more and more every time i go there and i think i'm making good progress, i think. i know my steps, but can't really catch the beat yet. the 3rd set is still a little blurry to me. but, it's good. all's good! :D and i'm enjoying dance practices.

#3: after dance practice, i found a new way home that will help me fulfill my 1000 steps/day. :) coooool!

#4: he's away at camp/ and is going to be so for the next few weeks cause the poor boy signed up for 3 back-to-back camps. silly boy. but that's the way to live it up in university! :D but i can't wait for the next time we meetup.

#5: i'm moving back to hall officially on the 29th of june 2009 |edit| i went to the hall office to ask if i could check in later because i don't think i should be leaving the room empty like that. sighs. ohwells. . i thought it was later, but my dance i/c actually helped us "book" our room from that date onwards. so might as well i guess. i'll be away for camp for a few days. but ohwells. :) at least when practice starts up, i'll have already moved in and will be roaring to go! :D

i think that's the end. i need sleeeeeep. and tomorrow's going to be another day of packing and maybe crashing of camps! actually, i can't wait to crash camps. lols.

and slowly, you feel it draining out of you.

the last few days have been slow, but quite eventful i guess. i realized that i'm looking prettier as the days go by. and sometimes i wonder if it's because of a particular person. but i'd rather think that it's mainly because i'm taking care of myself better. to tell the truth, i'm still not eating properly, especially since i came back from the island resort. my tummy's just been rejecting everything that i come into contact with.

a few things have come to mind and i've decided to take them up despite my already crazy schedule. firstly, i'm wanting to get a guitar - doesn't have to be the very expensive one. even a second hand one will do for me now because i don't think i want to start of with a really expensive professional guitar just yet. i want to take up the guitar and start writing tunes to my songs. secondly, i'm going to interview for a job at PLAYER. no, it's not some dirty R-rated magazine. it's the name of a new restaurant/bar located at the south bridge road area. and the reason for doing so is because i want to earn more money to get into a talent course that may lead to something even more.

i'm going to chase the dream as i study in NUS. :) on my own strength? maybe. but hopefully as time goes by, God's plan will slow get into gear. if the world is not going to support me, at least when i die, i know that in my lifetime, i tried to chase that dream and i won't regret not taking action.

and with regards to him. i know it's not even a relationship. it's something so casual that sometimes i feel it won't go anywhere. we're like friends, yet more than friends, yet not together. but sometimes in life, this in between feeling is just nice. i don't need someone to be my boyfriend. just cruising along in his car and talking to him about every other thing in life makes me feel that it's more than enough. there's a part of me that wants more, but i know that it's something i'm not prepared to handle . so, this little secret between me and him is more than enough for now.

if there's anything that i need right now, it's the courage to walk on with my own life.

i've been outstanding to the world for far too long, taken too many responsibilities and forgotten about myself. so maybe that's why i'm so forgettable. even if it takes a long time, i'm going to remember myself so that the world will remember me as well.

ciao for now.

if there has to be a word to describe what I'm going through now, it's just the simple phrase, confused. utter confusion in everything. I know where I should be going. I know where I want to go. I know what my end point should be. but I'm confused as to what the next step of mine should be. I'm confused and question if the path that I follow now is really the one that I want. and the best part is that no one but myself can answer these questions. so how then should I solve this dilemma. somethings that are happening now, I know is wrong and I shouldn't be doing, but these are the things in life that I enjoy. then there are the things that I supposedly must do but am not sure if I really believe in what I'm doing, but continue doing so because I'm still trying to find some sort of conviction in. then there are the things i don't want to do but end up doing because I can't say no to people in need.

talked to korie a while ago and realized that helping everybody around me but have forgotten about myself. right. something that I myself have known all this while but never really wanted to look up to because it's always easier to help others who are in pain instead of focusing on my own pain. I don't know what's the next step I should take even though I know what's the next thing I should do.

sometimes I feel like a forgotten entity because I'm like a classic timeless piece of art that is reatively unknown and nobody remembers this beautiful piece of art because they don't look for it. forgotten, that's the word. I do so many things that I detest just to help others but in the end i'm forgotten and left aside when I'm not needed.

maybe that's why he appeals to me. he holds me in his hand and tells me how beautiful I am despite my incessent protests that I'm fat. he looks at me as if I'm the only other person in the world next to him and then holds my hand tight as if he will not leave me. but alas, we both do not want to commit to each other because we both have issues. but I like this kind of relationship that we have. non-committal but fulfills both our emotional needs. and it's a comforting thing.

yes, you probably are thinking, what emotional needs, you seem fine to me. well, on the outside, that's what you see - me who is always so bubbly and happy, I like to be that way, my problem free mentality. but obviously all of us have our little secret selves who is different from the one that people see. the weaker side of our being, maybe even the evil twin. idk. what do you think.

I'm still desperately looking for an answer - one of the reasons why I'm still in church though I don't feel as convicted as before. I'm looking at all possiblities to find an answer. but have yet to find one.

the clouds keep rolling on and
the world just passes by.

it seems like nothing has changed
and i carry on like nothing's
wrong.

but deep inside, i know that
things that used to be
are no longer what
they seem.

and i know that my view on
many things have changed
drastically, but i pretend
that nothing's
wrong.

and no one realizes because
they're just too busy to care
or because they just don't.

reality is what you don't see.

when does it end? where does it start?
i honestly couldn't care any more.
i'm letting my life spiral into the unknown
and only someone who bothers
will pick me up again.

goodbye world.
till i meet reality again.

:D finally back from all the camps, and flying off up and away to another place for a well-deserved holiday i would say. this year's SECC experience as a councillor actually brought back some dejavu moments for me. even though most of the time i wasn't there at night, it was still a different experience as a councillor. AUSTIN POWERS! :) damn proud of you guys for being the most enthu group. and i wouldn't have it any other way. hopefully for them, the experience was just as powerful as my own, because it was really after SECC that i was really super sure that i wanted to make it a place i called home. can't wait for Rag to come because this year, we have a very sure chance of winning the shield back to Sheares and trashing our arch-rivals - XXXX XXXXX XXXX. (name censored due to various reasons, but shearites will definitely know who i'm talking about.)

had loads of fun at the camps, not only with the freshies but also with the seniors. :) I GOT TO SEE MY LEVEL6! or at least some of them anyway. and i really have to say that, i still miss them and will definitely miss them even more when the new annual year starts. but with everything new comes even better stuff, so i'm praying and hoping for things to be even better under my charge. as for BlockE, i've already started brainstorming about some plans that i want to implement with the new batch of block commers. and hopefully they go well.

RAG. RAG. RAG. that's actually all that i have on my mind right now because it's something that i've been looking forward to the whole year. i admit that even though i have a dance background, it's nothing like the things that we do in Rag because they don't dance my genre. sighs. and that's why, i have to work extra hard to forget my original mindsets and breakthrough to learn the dance that they have choreoed. and i guess i'm also really looking forward to having loads of fun with the raggers. :) and hopefully with some new austin powers dancers too!

righty. sleep beckons, camp really tired me out totally.
ciao. :)

recently with the onslaught of so many problems and frustrations ebbing its way into my life, i guess it's more or less time to stop thinking about them for a while. recently, like yesterday kind of recently, someone in one of my many extended "families" left the world, to a somewhat better place. hopefully she landed where she wanted to and that she has a good life from now on. and with the passing of a human being on this earth, i believe that there is going to be one more brighter star in the universe tonight.

but with such a passing, it made me think of my own passing on in the future. what would i do if all i had left was a year to live, or maybe two. what if i knew that i was going to die, what would i do? then i thought, maybe i should come up with my own bucket list. the older generation would be somewhat superstitious about this, especially since i'm not even 20years old. :) but, it's time to make a list of things that i can look forward and work towards.



well, that's all for now. but i think the list will start growing long soon enough. and as for me, it's ciao because i have to settle some stuff. sighs. back to real life? nah. i decided that all my different "lives" are all real in their own little way. :)

sometimes, maybe just sometimes. i feel like i want to give up on everything that i have in this world, and return to zero. because sometimes i myself do not know who i really am anymore. i am both sides of the coin, two faces of the mirror - is this how i am supposed to be? how can i be so responsible at times and at others, i just drop everything and not give a damn about the way things are. how can i be so materialistic at times, but also need nothing in the world to keep me going. it's a mystery even to me because i'm so flexible with the way i am, with who i'm supposed to be.

some people call it adaptability, and i can understand where they're coming from. but i don't know who i am anymore. is it ok if i be both at the same time, or do i really have to be one character only. it's amazing what kind of random feelings you can have about yourself. and i'm wondering if this whole random bout is actually a period of self-doubt.

i love the nightlife, and the only full-time day job i want to have is to be a performer, an artiste. and for all you adults out there who have lofty aspirations for me, unfortunately for you, the last thing that i want to be is a lawyer, doctor, or anything that has me cooped up in a building from 9-5/ not happy? too bad because i don't give a damn about what you think i should be. i've had enough bothering about what people expect from me. the only rules i'll live by are my own.

and so what if my rules are full of havoc. i will go to ladies night without fail on wednesdays. i will not eat unless i feel like it, or remember to do so. i will sleep only when i have time to. i will keep myself busy at all times even at the expense of myself. SO WHAT. no one f- cares. mother says "go do what you want to do". the father, is MIA. the father's side thinks i'm an english-speaking arrogant ass. the mother's side thinks i should be a super high flying *insert typical 9-5, high-paying job here*. so much for actually CARING.

truthfully, i don't feel that there's anyone in my life right now who really really, sincerely and heartfeelingly cares for me. yes, there are those who SAY they care. there are those who TRY TO SHOW they care. but they are always short of something. people who care for me don't support my ideals. people who support my ideals don't really care for me. wts. really, God, is there no person who will do both at the same time, other than you because you are not counted because you are not a human being, you are God.

and coming to the God issue. sighs. where do i start. i've lost all the love that i have for God. totally and entirely lost it. but if you are a christian and you are reading, just be glad that i am trying all means and ways to get that love back. i attend cellgroup, service, bible study - sometimes i learn something and apply it, sometimes i'm skeptical about what is being preached. i'm sorry, i'm not perfect.

i wish i was back in 2006 and not fall in love with a certain person. then maybe i would still be serving God wholeheartedly, be having good grades and a great man as my boyfriend now. unfortunately, i made a wrong choice then and am regretting it now. again, i'm going to be fully honest because i don't really care what you think anymore. i finally see what people have been telling me all these years, it really wasn't worth it giving so many years of my life to that one person because i realized that he never really loved me. he said he did, but that was all bull. seriously. don't come and tell me "i did love you back then" because i won't believe a single word. on what basis am i saying this - by the way you treated me and the way you are treating her.

but that's over and done with.

ohgoshwhattheshit. there's just so much more that i want to say. some people call it reasons. others call it excuses. but i don't care what anyone thinks anymore because it's my life. Viva La Vida, long live life!

it was the wicked and wild wind
blew down the doors to let me in
shattered windows and the sound of drums
people couldn't believe what i'd become.

after all that ranting, you probably have one question in mind, or maybe many. but my answer to all your questions is that it's not that i don't care, i just want to see where the wind takes me. i've had enough of carefully planning what to do next or what step i'm going to take. i just want to live life day to day, in the wind. of course i still have my long term goals - being a singer, having my own fashion label, jewelry label, going to the grammys, the golden horse awards and what not. i've got dreams that are bigger than me. to be a philanthropist, do charity, sponsor education, materials, toys. build houses, orphanages, schools, libraries, wells, irrigation systems etc. - all over Asia and Africa. i want to not only travel the world, but also to touch it.

ohwhathighandcrazydreamsyouhave, SO WHAT! i know i'll do it one day in my own special way. the world will not go down without me making a difference first.

i have big dreams, and no supporters. but all the more, i want to push through that brick wall. because it's determination that breaks it down in the end. i believe in myself and a God above (who will do something even though i don't love him as much as before).

I'M BACK! :) sighs. the blog is really dying away and almost rotting. but, the owner (namely me) has just been too busy to do any updates. the last few days have been quite roller-coaster-esuqe for me because there's just been too many things going on and too many thoughts running around. struggling quite alot between what i should be doing and what others want me to do. and this year, i've chosen to do what others want me to do.

long story, but that's what a blog is all about. for you to tell stories that would take too long to talk about. if you've known me long enough, you'd know that i love singing and one day, i want to be a superstar (oh, and a philanthropist as well). but, if you know the family, you'd know that they think that it's an impractical dream and they have their own little ambitions for me. dad wants me to do business, uncle thinks that i should be a lawyer even though there's no way i see myself getting into the law faculty at this point of time - and that's just the start of doctor (how?), economist, psychologist etc etc. and while i quietly listen to them rattle on about what i should do in the future, there are times when i just want to scream at them and say "DON'T EXPECT ME TO LIVE THE LIFE THAT YOU WANTED TO!" - honestly, if there is a dream that you cannot fulfill yourself, don't expect me to live your dream because i have my own dreams i want to live.

if there's is one thing that i hate adults for is the fact that they think that they always know more than us "children". but more often than not, it has been proven that we kids can actually be more preceptive than adults. on more than one occasion, i've told a certain adult in my life not to do certain things, or to watch out of certain events and people. but because i am just a kid, she didn't listen and on many, many occasions have made immeasurable losses. sighs. if only the adults could stop and listen.

三人行, 必有我師 - when three people travel together, there is always something that i can learn from the other two. which i fins very true in the very limited number of years that i have been on this earth. it's about life long learning. a student will always have something that a teacher can learn, a subordinate will always have something that will be of value to his boss. so when then are adults so adamant about what they say to us.

well, that's all for my ranting. next week's going to be busy and tiring because there's going to be camp. and of course about a million other things that will be happening. after the camp, i'll be off to bintan for a short resort holiday. :) well deserved i would say.

ciao.

just one word - TIRED, physically mostly because i haven't had enough sleep.

i'm glad that PVC is over, but at the same time also at a loss because it has been something that i've been concentrating on for the last three months. but i'll fill that gap soon enough. had an awesome finale to the PVC yesterday at VivoCity's Plaze. obviously the family thought that it wasn't important enough to show up and support. well, i guess i'm getting used to it - the family not caring about the things that i do, putting down what i feel like doing and being just totally unsupportive of my dreams. they have a fixed idea of what i should be, and i hate it because i want to walk my own path and yet nobody cares about what i really want to do.

anyway, back to the finale, i had not slept for the last 4-5days before the finale because of many many reasons. and the night before the finale, i was up at VivoCity putting up the photos. it was one night where i really spent my waking hours doing something productive. made some new friends, caught up with some old ones. thanks for spending the night there together because, it really made a difference. :)

the day was even more exciting because we just had so much fun appreciating each other and well, just having loads of fun. my favourite part was where we ALL GOT WET! :D the mentors, organizers and kids were all in the fountain just having fun - even the medics were not spared. hahas. as for me, i got wet in the most amusing way. they carried me into a trolley and just let the trolley run through the fountain. LOLS. as scared as i was, it was total fun. i wouldn't have wanted it any other way. wait, maybe i could have been more willing. :P

spent the whole freakin day sleeping unproductively. sighs. tomorrow has to be better.
for now, nights and ciao.