i'd take a midnight train to anywhere, just to get out of here.
sounds so complicated. feels so complicated. i don't really like my life at this point of time because i feel that there's just too much to deal with and i'm slowly falling away into an abyss of darkness that i don't really like . today, i decided not to do anything at all. and i just locked myself in my room and slept the whole day. a well-deserved rest i think because the weekend is going to be long and the next week, even longer. there's no end to many things and i don't see where somethings will be going. deadlines pressing in and things like that. i feel like dying. there's no support . there's no one around to help me. and i feel so lonely at times.
i want my life back. my life of shopping, clubbing, hanging out. i'd really rather be a nobody that a somebody right now. if i were a nobody, i'd be able to club as much as i want, slack as much as i want. the passion, is slowly dying down because there no support. and i just feel like fading away into the darkness. goodness.
but here and now's not the time to rant. i'm going to take it as it comes i guess. and all i can say to myself is JIAYOUS.