because i know that i'll get hurt later, or maybe sooner?
sometimes, i guess that pessimism just sets in, especially when there are questions that are unanswered and some that cannot be answered. some, are answers that i'm not ready to hear, just yet. present, still not done and well, i'm feeling guilty. because the longer i take to finish it, the more confused i become and the more emotions i put into that supposedly simple present. which seriously sucks.
i know i'm definitely going to get hurt, no matter what the answer is. i'm not ready to handle this sh*t right now cause i've got too many things on hand. and a lot on my mind. so, the heart isn't really taking precedence right now. i just want to slow things down and not think about it.
bahh.