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THE BLOG! :) obviously, but also to a world of wonders and mysteries
that are to be unraveled because that's precisely what SHE (or rather
me,) is all about. if you know me, welcome to another side of me.
but if you don't know me, it's okay. i still welcome you into a world of me
and what happens. i'm not anywhere near perfect, but here is where
i share my experiences and learnings. hope you'll be blessed reading
my entries!
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Wednesday, September 30, 2009

falling in too deep, i want to be your angel.

i want to take it slow with him. like really, really slow. because i don't want to step into another trap that will hurt me. i don't want to step into something that will leave my heart in pieces again. but the more i try to stop myself, the faster i fall. how do i overcome this cycle that i've trapped myself in.

i can't stop myself from falling. and my friends think that this is a very big change from who i used to be. but, he got me thinking about somethings seriously. he's like an anchor for my changeable emotions and a lock of security for my floating soul. the stability that i feel with him, i don't know how to explain it.

and i know i'm falling in too deep. because i'm already wanting to be your angel. to love you. and to be with you.

but i know that this is something that i can't rush.
stop me from falling dear. stop me .

on another note, i know that most of the time, i've lost my faith in religion because there's so much that i don't believe anymore. i don't believe that i can be forgiven. i don't believe that i deserve to be forgiven. and i just want to go on with my life, making the choices myself, loving the people that i want to love. all this while, my previous boyfriends have never been christian. and because of that, i don't believe god will love me ever again. because i don't believe that i can live the life that god wants me to.

but sometimes, videos depicting god's love, still touches me.
and maybe one day, i still can be saved.