firstly, a huge sorry to QiaoQiao. :( was supposed to go clubbing with her, but i was too tired after all the dance and orientation camp events. we had block culture today and i actually went to change in between to my bikini/clubbing wear, but in the end, decided not to go because tmr morning is another long day of orientation programs. sleep is, somewhat needed badly.
today, or rather yesterday was a long but quite exciting and fulfilling day for me. dance in the morning till late afternoon. had news that i currently cannot post here that brought along a little ruckus, but it's fine for now i think. shouldn't be too big a problem. :) and then block culture at night where all the other 4blocks had to go through our block culture (of course there was also the pleasure of drinking our very own homemade chinchow! the traditional blockE drink. hees.) block culture was supposed to end at 8pm, but it dragged a little till late 9plus. then there was cleaning up, which was fun because i ponded andy and moses! :D IMISSTHELEVEL6PONDINGSESSIONS. i think i mentioned it before, but yeah, i'm just mentioning it again. i think those were the most fun memories of level6. sighs. if time could rewind.. but unfortunately, time doesn't wait nor stop for any man.
memories, will always be sweet memories.
and that's why, i'm going to enjoy the now. talked to a few people here and there about many things that was on my mind (even though they didn't know. i know, i'm good at this.) and cleared out some things about my emo-ness. was in a seriously bad mood this morning because of so many factors, not just the monthly thing, but also because i just keep thinking about so many things that maybe, i shouldn't be thinking about. i guess i was thinking about the word "official" too much.
sometimes, things don't need to be said too plainly. because when things are put out in the open, there are appearances to keep up, and of course, very much more responsibility that has to be taken up. and i don't want that kind of commitment either because it's too taxing. wayy too taxing for my poor brain to take. these sneaky sneaky moments will be the ones that i look back on in the future, even if we aren't together in the long run. they'll be sweeter memories than if we were together. and there's less pressure this way.
i've changed my mind. i don't need an official.
i just need a HERE and a NOW.
because this is where fun starts.
and will only end when we say so.
:) ilikeyou.butidon'tneedaboyfinyou.
boyfs, they'reamillionandone
you, areoneinamillion.
loves.
