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Tuesday, August 04, 2009

and i'll never know what i really want
cause all i want is you .

the night wind's blowing into my 7th floor room and the breeze just caresses my cheeks. how i wish that it was your rough hands instead. i'm sitting on the bed, typing on the computer. how i wish you could be next to me. somehow, it seems like the more i wish for things, the further it gets from me. like i wished for you, but you're a hundred miles away from me even though you stand right in front of me, looking me in the eye.

i can never comprehend how i could ever like a guy like you, totally, not the type that i would expect myself to be going out with. boys your type are usually for playing and dumping in about a week's time. but you've stayed longer than that, and i'm starting to expect more out of what we have right now. it's not just about the time spent together, but the constant random bantering that we have. and the little tricks that i like to play on you.

i loved the way you barged into my room unexpectedly that day. :)

and if your realize, i don't dare look into your eyes because i'm afraid of what i might find. because i'm afraid that i'll fall for those dark soulful eyes of yours. and therein lies the irony. i don't know what i really want. is what we have now really enough to satisfy me? i've been psychoing myself that this is the right path to walk, treasuring the now and not expecting more. but i myself know that i will expect more than this.

but for now, i force myself not to think.

because youth is already too short for us to fully enjoy, so why waste time thinking and racking your brains on something so mindless. all i need to know is you are all i want for now. just you and you alone. i don't exactly know what i need, but i just know that I WANT YOU. but just as you are free to do anything you want, i am free too, to do anything that i want.

remember boy, it's a want, not a need.