had that revelation today. and to a certain extent it's true. when the going gets tough and tiring and there's a part of you that wants to give up because things are taking too long or not going on efficiently. or when you're just so tired of waiting for something to happen. all you need is someone to say i believe in you. and then, you'll have the strength to believe in other people. especially when it's you alone doing something or believing in something.

and recently i've been feeling like that, so alone in so many ways. when everything rests on your shoulders and the people around you are not helping out - especially when the people who are supposed to are slacking off or thinking that they've done their part and shouldn't help anymore. we're all tired, but when you don't help, you add on to that weight on me. it's my responsibility, but you were assigned to help, so help.

in one other aspect, i honestly say that i am getting tired.
- deleted - typed a whole chunk of things for almost 7mins and then decided that, it's not going to help. it wouldn't help if she knows. it wouldn't help if he knows. it wouldn't help if they know. don't even bother asking. just know that i'm tired.

french test in a while. not exactly looking forward to it.