comme il pleut sur la ville;
quelle est cette langueur
qui pénètre mon coeur
When the time comes, What will you do?
even though French will probably pull my CAP down and what not, i still don't regret taking it because it's opened up a whole new world of literature to me. it may not be my best language and i'm still somewhat blur about many things concerning the language, but it's been a really fun ride. had my last lecture today and there's french test tomorrow. but, no matter what marks i get, the most important is the fact that i had fun doing this. :)
but on another note, as the semester comes to an end, i have to think about my major. sociology? geography? new media? i don't even really know why i'm here in NUS. it's a dream of so many students to be in this institution, and i am here already. but what am i doing here, i'm not too sure. what do i really want to do with my life - it comes down to this question. i know that i don't want an office job, totally out of the question. i know i want a job where i have to take risks everyday. and there are so many choices that i want to pursue, but, NUS is not a place where i'll be able to fulfill them.
quelyn, you need to really think about it.
choices, we all make them. but what we choose makes us, or breaks us. simple as that. or, is it? many people say that we all have choices. but choices are also bound by many restrictions - and that's what's holding me back from making the choices that i want to. my parents will never support what i want to do - and that's my biggest restriction. because without finances, i won't be able to study what i want to. and anyway, my parents look down on my aspirations because they think that it won't be able to feed me. and that saddens me alot because all i need is for them to say "yes, i believe you can." and not worry about anything else, leave that worrying to me. sighs. but parents, they just don't understand and always think that they are right.
recently been busy and well, haven't had any extra head space to think about many things. my focus is no longer on myself and my relationship, but more on the PSR plans and PVC supervision of my kids. but deep in my heart, i know that there's only so long that my brain can avoid the situation and the feelings. my heart is somewhat hanging in the air even though i know what i should do.
had a fun time yesterday and DIDN'T GET PONDED. :) hengfai was too busy with ahem to pond me, even though he did try to get some of the level6 guys to help him. but by that time, i was drinking with some of the other level6ers, so no chance to pond! :P had a fantastic 2007 Cabernet Sauvignon reserve from bordeaux and a very happy Moscato. oh, and Sapporo after that. hahas. drank and talked and found out a lot more about these guys esp. the new one. but mostly, had a lot of fun. :) but, time flies when you're having fun, and i spent almost two and a half hours there! by the time i realized it, i rushed back to my room to sleep. hahas.
new house rules for quelyn. #1: no eating after 7pm. #2: sleep before 1am. and hopefully, i'll keep to them. :)
french test tmr.
study calls.
avoir! :)
lastly, check this video out!
it's just sheep, and lights!
the the end's tres bien!
oh, but the poor sheep.
sighs.
