"i know you care for me and that's all that matters." - 6th April 2009,8.23pm. the very very first line of the post. and you feel that i think you never cared? i don't know what else to say to make you see that i know you care. and to me, it was always about you.
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this whole ordeal/misunderstanding started all because of me, so i'll end it. it all started because i was overly emotionally attached to you - has been since three years ago and became even stronger when you left. and i was greedy and wanted more than i was allowed to. but i was asking for more from a person who had already went over his limits already. and because of my own stupid mindset of seeing you as more than just a friend, i felt unfairly treated. but in actual fact, i was unfair to you - i'm sorry. but from today onwards, it'll never happen again. i'll try to continuously think of you as a friend, and i'll try as much as possible not to bring my personal emotions of romantic love into our friendship. those emotions have wrecked it to a level where i've hurt you so much. i don't know how else to rectify it other than saying, i'm sorry and promising that i won't try to be more than a good friend to you.