really nice song that i heard a few years ago, but it didn't come back to me till recently. and i find that there's a lot of meaning in this particular song because what is said is really true. "fathers, be good to your daughters/daughters will love like you do" - i really feel this line because up to a certain point of time, i was really like my father. many people know him as a very nice man whom i always talk about (of course, i don't put my father down in front of other people), but what they don't know is that his love is one that is always here but, not here. there, but not there. he can be in love with many women at the same time, and i feel that there was one point of time where i learnt from him. i had 4"steads" and was flirting with a few more guys. HAHAS. bet you readers never thought that there was this side to me. but, it's true, i was "loving" like my father did.

but i'm glad that since then, i've changed.

sometimes i feel that this "father" topic is something that we don't really talk about. i mean, i know he's somewhere in the world, but i'm never really sure where he is. singapore? vietnam? africa? i don't know, and i haven't seen him physically for about a year maybe? i can't even remember if i saw him during chinese new year. to say that i don't miss him, is a lie. but at home, we don't really talk about him because mother will just throw a fit and start saying a tonne of things you don't want to hear about him.

and "on behalf of every man/looking out for every girl/you are the guide and the weight of her world" - is so true for me currently. my life wouldn't be the same without these two, well, "men" - God, whose somewhat taken the place of my earthly father and korie, who has always been my guide and the weight of my world after God. :) i realize that for every major change that i went through in the last maybe 4years, korie has always been by my side, being my guide and weighing me down when i start to lose track of reality, holding me up when i cannot stand on my own two feet. of course there were other people who were also there for me, like my besties and N233/N415, but i realize that most of the time, i run to him for comfort because i know he won't judge me. instead, he will comfort when he needs to, gentle chide me when i do something wrong, and is always very honest with me. :) thanks korie, for standing by my side through my darkest moments, for holding me up when my heart was broken, for lending me a shoulder when my grandmother died, for helping me find my confidence again. simply for being by my side without asking for anything in return. you're one of the greatest blessings tat God has given to me, and i wouldn't know what to do without a brother like you. :))

but i think more than korie, i have to thank another person - God. cause he's really the one who made me, moulded me and he's the one who really knows me more than any person in the world. even my parents don't know me as much as he does. :) and i don't know what to say because words really fail me when it comes to God. hahas. but i thank him for creating me, seeing me through everything and blessing me with good friends and people around me.

well, enjoy your day! i'm going night cycling tonight. :)
argh. but i'm going to study now. HAHAS. bye!