一陣風突然吹過
吹起了嘴邊無意的笑意
也同時吹醒了這個夏天
仍舊在冬眠的人們
got woken up early in the morning by my phone ringing away, so i turned it off to silent mode and went back to sleep. sighs. studying makes me very tired. but it's okay cause today i'm going out of hall to study at some quiet place - hopefully it's quiet. just woke up and read through a few messages. Xav's going dragonboating today. sighs. makes me want to start dragonboating again. but it's been hmm. more than three years since i last went, so i guess that currently, it's out of the question. got to shape up before doing anything else. marathons come first though.
and then to the other person. i think no matter how many messages or emails you send, whatever content it is, it's already irrelevant. you didn't read my post carefully. you asked me to read your emails again, i'm asking you to read my blog posts again because ALL THE ANSWERS THAT YOU NEED ARE THERE. messaging me doesn't make a difference because i've already said, i made my stand very clear, and i'm not going to repeat myself - and this time, i'm really keeping to it and i'm not going to repeat myself. whatever you said about forgetting about this whole incident, it's already been forgiven. you didn't read it, did you. and no matter what you message, my stand is very clear already. i'm just waiting for that simplest answer from you. i don't need you to write long messages and emails anymore, it's just a one word answer that even my 3year old sister can give. so tell me, who's complicating things here? i'm asking for a simple answer and you can't give me one. this is what i meant by you never understood. now i feel like laughing cause i'm thinking back and wondering if it was really me who was complicating stuff. and no, i'm not going back to read those emails because i think there's no need to anymore. forgiven and over, so why should i read them again? i don't think they hold any relevance in this context anymore.
if you still don't understand - then i really don't know what else to say already. i'm tired of explaining over and over again and you continuously misunderstanding me when everything is so simple. i don't hide anything on the blog and yet you still can misunderstand. it's quite scary because when a third party reading this blog, who doesn't know you, doesn't know the entire situation, can understand what i'm feeling and you don't - i feel like crying, because all these years, i've been telling people that you're the one who can really understand me, but even now, i have the urge to doubt that, but for now, i won't. because i'm giving you another chance, yet again..
simple answer, i'm waiting for it.