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THE BLOG! :) obviously, but also to a world of wonders and mysteries
that are to be unraveled because that's precisely what SHE (or rather
me,) is all about. if you know me, welcome to another side of me.
but if you don't know me, it's okay. i still welcome you into a world of me
and what happens. i'm not anywhere near perfect, but here is where
i share my experiences and learnings. hope you'll be blessed reading
my entries!
LOVE YOU!
Wednesday, April 08, 2009

3hrs 18mins more to the start of my premiere! jittery jittery, even though i'm not performing live, but this is the first time that i've tried doing something like this and it's amazing how the adrenaline rushes through your body even though i'm doing some thing as simple as sitting in front of the computer typing these words out. sometimes i think it maybe novelty, and that's why i don't dare to pursue it.

but my best guess is that it's the feeling of effort. Raj's FB message says "satisfaction lies in effort, not in attainment" - kinda echos the saying that it's not the destination but the journey that matters. and that's what life is about. to me, it's about putting 100% effort in everything that i do, no matter how many other things i have on hand.

i know that people may disagree and ask, "how can you put 100% into everything if you have more than one thing happening at the same time?" - quelyn, and all the other mentors in the PVC team will tell you, we are living examples of being able to do that. it's not a special skill or an extraordinary feat. it's just the will and strength of the heart, mind and soul - where if you put those three things to it, you've put your 100% in. all mentors in PVC are asked to set goals that are achievable in the next 3mths and then we all set our minds to achieve all of them with the support of everyone around us.

but then, i realize that some goals are harder to achieve than others, especially when they involve another person. for now, i'm not going to say that i've failed in that particular goal because i'm still not giving up and i'm still going to put my 100% effort into it - i just have to find a way to do it. i don't want to give up on that goal, neither do i want to give up that person or that friendship. too precious to lose, but too fragile to touch.

my other goals are going pretty well - training to run 10k under an hour, 3.75CAP (hopefully i'll get higher!) and savings (something i never had. lols.) many milestones have passed, and i'm proud of myself. and so are my supporters. so if you're a new reader on the blog, or you're a friend but don't know about these goals, NOW YOU KNOW! and you can be my supporter too! :)

it's not even close to the premiere time, but i've been getting calls and messages wishing me goodluck for my screening. :) i don't know why i'd need luck for, but, thank you all for your love and encouragement. hee. i'll make sure that tonight will be a resounding success!

a bientot!
blogging my thank you speech tonight.