just woke up from another nightmare, at 1:06pm. my goodness. i have never woken up this late before. why does my body allow itself to sleep through the horror that my mind plays? i'm a person who rarely has dreams, but recently they've been getting more frequent - and there are more nightmares than sweet ones. i seriously need someone who will wish me "sweet dreams". but i think that's inconsequential because no one will fit that bill unless it's... sighs.

i guess sleeping in till so late is my body's way of protesting for more rest - yes, i think i definitely need it. i've been working throughout as if nothing's wrong the past few days. no one in hall knows i'm not feeling well - and i'm damn proud of it because i have such good acting skills. with so many responsibilities and deadlines that we have, i need to be stronger than this. argh. but i need my rest too. sighs. hate it when there's so many things to do cause i just shift into overload mode. have to change this damn bad habit. :(

nightmare, nightmare, go away
don't come back another day

i think it's the devil trying to break me down. he knows that my greatest weakness now is the fact that i'm feeling lonely - because all my friends are becoming official with their boys and they're having less time to spend with me. but i swear that i'll be stronger than this. because my friends are still my friends, i still have N415, and of course, i still have the very far away him. i will be stronger than this because i know that there are people around me. stupid devil, don't try your #$%^ dirty tricks on me you sick bas*ard. you're called the devil for a reason. and i'm the princess of God for a reason. so don't be a sick AH.