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happyhappyhappy news that came out from my meeting that just ended. now, should i get dinner? sighs. it's a little late though. but anyway, the happy news is that BEP PREMIERE IS BEING POSTPONED TILL NEXT WEEK. i can catch up on my sleep. i can study for my french test. i can go for lessons. i can edit my film to an even more detailed level. i can add additional scenes if need be. oh the joy and the happiness of being able to do a good job, the perfectionist at heart says. and after this, the post starts getting random.

today i told Qiao something about my thoughts and i myself said something and was shocked at the revelation - is it really a need? or just an addictive habit? sighs. don't want to think about it. i feel that if i think too much about the issue, i'll complicate it. but because i don't want to think about it too much, it never gets solved. how? simple - don't do anything. stagnation is bliss sometimes.

changed my MSN nick recently from the chinese "my wishes are written in the stars" to "chasing time&. kisses in the wind", literally what i'm doing. chasing time to do everything in the stipulated time period. chasing time to finish my goals that i have set for PVC. chasing time to shape up for the year end marathon season. just chasing time. and chasing kisses that fly past me to someone else, never able to catch them because they know who their owner is.

and then i want to question, what exactly is __________ ? (fill in the blanks cause i myself really don't know exactly what i wanna question...)

ah. i don't care. even though i don't live in liverpool, or wherever the team comes from (hahas), i will still believe that MY HOME TEAM will win against all the odds. ehh, i don't care if i have to eat socks (because i know chris is TOO SOFT HEARTED. lols.) but yah. i don't really know soccer/football, i just stay loyal to a team whom i think is good. in fact, i became a fan of the team initially because of their motto - "you'll never walk alone". :)

going to have a PVC mentor's meeting either thursday or friday. :D can't wait to meet my dearest Youth Factory. totally excited cause i haven't seen many of them in ages! ahh. and there's gonna be the Youth Factory BBQ on the 11th of April. seems like april is one goddamn exciting month. BUT I NEED TO STUDY...

gonna apply for the Manhattan Credit Card (thanks to Bella for the info), not because it means i have extra credit (pls, the limit is only $500 and i'm probably not going to use it) cause it gives me FREE ENTRY TO VELVET/ZOUK/PHUTURE (!!!) on friday and saturday nights. that translates to an amount of about $120/month on an average partying month. so, i get to save on club covers. alcohol is always solved by either ourselves, or the boyfriends. i don't have one, so i depend on the other's boys for it. wheeeee. so that equates my clubbing spree spending to less than $100/month cause i just have to pay taxi fare home. AHHH. but i haven't been clubbing for ages. last time i went was probably Valentines' Day (coming) 2months ago. waiting for the holidays to go all crazy again. the music, the dance, the company. mostly superficial, totally enjoyable, 100% pleasure.

it's escape from the reality of daily life.

but before that, STUDYYY. totally worried for it now because i need to up or at least maintain my CAP. which is a huge problem currently. i am going to become a MUGGER in april so that i can pull my socks up and salvage whatever is left of Year1Sem2. plus, i need my CAP if i'm wanting to go for SEP: Destination Undecided. Aussieland beckons. but Canada also calls. best friend vs. godmother. ohmygoodness. i'll leave it to fate. when i apply i'll put aussie first and then canada second, and then see where i get to go to.

BBFF, i think this year, it might just be taiwan. cause i just realized that december is my sports training month, and max i can leave training is 2-3weeks. hope you'll still welcome me. hahas.

totally random post. totally. sleep deprived. food deprived. unintended. today was 4-6pm,6-8pm,8-10pm without stop. lesson.lesson.meeting. sighs.

totally need a break somewhere before i start my mugging spreeee.

and i think i just missed you online cause i went to film and when i came back, your nick changed. you didn't see me cause i'm appearing offline. and i feel quite disturbed by where i'm placed in your MSN list. but oh. wtf. it's not like i'll know if you change it. don't mind me, i'm currently in bitch mode.

mood swings have been crazy these few days but haven't been showing cause i'm just too sleepy. hate this period of the month cause it's just so ohwhatthesh*t. totally. the workload and stress doesn't help, but i'm dealing with it - that's what i'm good at.

craving all sorts of things - kushinbo. sushi. fries. ICE-CREAM. mac&cheese. TIRAMISU. arghh. but none of them can be fulfilled cause all the random imitations around just doesn't make the cut. siannesss. i'm starting to complain, so i better stop blogging before i break the happy happy mood that still lingers somewhere nearby.


wheeeeeee.
up, up and away~