finally finished the script! - ok, almost finished. still have one more scene to go, which i actually don't really want to write because i really have no inspiration for it. quite excited to see how this whole thing will turn out cause afterall, it's the hardwork of all my dear Eekers. :D it premiers April 1st (nope, i'm not fooling around!) and i wish you were here to see it - friends and family are invited you see. anywho, i'm excited about tonight and quite stressed too because we're filming a major scene and in between i have to rush off for two photoshoots. sighs. in his words, i have a lot of "funny funny" things to do - which i will disagree on the "funny funny" part. :P

and i'm feeling loads better. fever's gone but i'm aching all over. sighs. whatever luhh. i have so many other things to do, can't think about this too much. i think i have to psycho myself and tell myself that it's not pain. it's not pain. it's not pain. then maybe it'll really not be pain. HAH. sighs again. now i feel like sleeping.

randomly, i was quite shocked that you called. hahas. and this morning when i woke up, the first thing that came to my mind was "did i really talk to him yesterday?". maybe it's because it's been so long since i've heard your voice over the phone like that and to me, it's really too good to be real, like a dream come true. cliched shit, but it's true. it's been so long since i've said somethings out loud that i'm so unused to it and i spew a few vulgarities after saying it because it feels so right yet so wrong and my mind is thrown into confusion.

but, i like the way i can be myself when i'm with you. i don't have to hide - even if i do at first, it eventually comes out. with you, i feel at ease. you are definitely my weakness. my best friend. 我唯一的知己. but somehow, it was different too - a difference that i liked. ^^ you talked more in than you did in the past. the silences were more comfortable. and even though now you're even further away from me than you've ever been, your presence feels closer. and i know it's wrong to feel this way. but i cannot help it. simply because i love you that much. i really do.

and honestly, i'm afraid that one day i'll find out that this is all a dream. because i realize i'm getting too greedy for my own good. i know that the more i hope for something to happen, the greater the disappointment will be if it doesn't happen. but for now, i honestly don't care. to me, if i can make memories now, it should be more than enough. it should be. hopefully. (:





oh. this post is so random.
but that's what makes this blog mine.

^^