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THE BLOG! :) obviously, but also to a world of wonders and mysteries
that are to be unraveled because that's precisely what SHE (or rather
me,) is all about. if you know me, welcome to another side of me.
but if you don't know me, it's okay. i still welcome you into a world of me
and what happens. i'm not anywhere near perfect, but here is where
i share my experiences and learnings. hope you'll be blessed reading
my entries!
LOVE YOU!
Wednesday, March 04, 2009

dreamt of a million stars falling from the sky whilst i was sleeping. (: i wish it would really happen. then i could make a million more wishes - of happiness, love, faith & hope. for world peace, and the termination of wars in the world. but i'm not that naive to think that just wishing on the stars will change anything. that kind of thinking would be for fools or the extremely innocent - what i was many years ago.

when i got back to hall yesterday night, i actually questioned myself. for a year plus, i've told everyone, "i've moved on. i've forgotten." moving on is something that is not easy - and i questioned, did i really move on? someone told me a few days ago, if you've let go of someones hand, don't hold it again. but how do you "hold again" a hand that's never left yours, not literally but metaphorically and emotionally?

but, i'm not looking for a solution to that. it doesn't mean anything even if i find a solution cause i know i will not be able to put it into action. so i'm looking to do other more meaningful things to remind me that there's more to the world than me. i'm surfing for exchange prgrams, internships and volunteer opportunities overseas.

i'm going to rebuild my life around my church as well. i think it's been too long that i've been idle and away from church activities. and i didn't really notice because almost three years have passed so quickly. i haven't served in church. i haven't been fully participating. going to service and cell group at first was just to fulfill my religious duty. then it became a search for God again, which failed over and over. but now, it's going to change, i hope. i want to serve again and be as close to God as i used to be.
she'soneluckygirl.
she'sgotbothyouandGod.
igaveGodupforyou.


i'm going to put in even more into dance and marathon trainings. but before that, i have to go to a specialist. i've ignored and forgotten about many things with regards to myself. when i get injured i push on. when i'm hungry i always say i'm too busy to eat - and yes, i am busy but i guess i could have made time. the past few days i've been eating my meals, not always on time, but i still do. and my stomach is not really agreeing to the increased input of food, but it'll cope after a while i think. gotta go get some help with my ankle too. usually i just ignore it and like self-medicate. but i can't do that anymore - i'm starting to do serious marathoning already. plus i wanna play softball competitively next year. (:

things will be looking up i hope. i will still have my moments of tears and of missing you. but i want to be stronger than what i am now. i want to be a woman who is able to support her man in anyway he needs. and to do that, i have to be stronger than myself. and yes, i believe in myself that i will make it. no more self-doubting because self-doubt is detrimental to the mind.

iloveyou
imissyou

Project Vibrant Colours 2
Journey Outline is OUT!
excited, nervous. full of expectancy. (: