another reason why i'm happy today is because i got a very touching message from sheena - the trainer who took the i-choose training this round. her message: "there're many things i wanna say. and i know i'd take forever to finally come up with what i fully wanna say. so in a few words, i just wanna say, thank you. for inspiring. for trusting. for loving. ever since day 1 we met. it's a privilege and i'm humbled to be in the same team as you. please, please see how powerful you are." it's the words in bold that really just enlightened and empowered my whole mind.
sometimes, i just need someone else to believe in me so that i know that i can believe in myself. and even though i know that there are people out there who believe in me, i don't really hear them say it - my parents are just too busy, and so is yh, and so is korie. these 4people are the people who matter the most to me. anything anyone of them says will either just make me or break me. it's that simple and that powerful. but they rarely say things. and i lie to myself that it's okay and i don't need their encouragement and what not. sighs.
ohwell. i'm happy today also because i bought some nice gummy coated in milk chocolate. it's some new flavour and i'm very happy with my choice. :D simple thing, simple smile - big big huge happiness. melvin was right i guess, next time i get into a fix or have an injury, the medic just needs to throw his first aid kit away and bring a bag of chocolates. always makes my day. (but i'm still dreaming of my "Three Wishes" which no one can find anymore. i need a new favourite chocolate.)
): the not so happy stuff - i screwed my french oral test. i'm still sick with a damn cough. i'm not dancing for the next one or two weeks. went to see the doctor and she gave me some damn strong medicine. usually when the medicine says "may cause drowsiness", i never get drowsy. but this one was really potent - i ate it and went to sleep. 5mins later when i turned in bed to change positions to sleep, omg - my head was just swimming like the feeling you get when you're damn damn damn high on alcohol. and i slept (actually knocked out from the medicine) till 10am! i'm not taking the medicine tonight cause i have a midterm test at 8am! i cannot sleep through it or i will just DIE.
meeting my small group One-Five tomorrow and kenny is bringing some friends who might join in PVC. :) happy. just as sheena, yinghan, yvonne & youth factory believe in me, i want to believe in my fellow mentor, also called yvonne and my currently all-boys team One-Five - to believe in the best of them. to believe in their abilities. to believe that we will go through and end this journey well, winning and winning and winning! :D I'M EXCITED. even though i still have my reservations, even though i have a lot of thoughts, i will just believe.
imissyou.
