:D really happy today cause i finally know which school i'll be mentoring in Project Vibrant Colours - my alma mater NYJC! hees. i actually rejected taking the school at first because it's really, REALLY far away from where i'm staying now. but after about 5mins of thinking, i called the mentor co-ordinator back and said that it was okay. because i think NYJC is a challenge for me too. being in a familiar environment will make me feel too comfortable - and that's the challenge. i have to do my best in that familiar environment and not get complacent.

also, there's fear because as an ex-councillor, there will be many eyes on me, yet again. one thing i learnt as a councillor is that no matter what, every teacher will know what's going on with us. even though i was just a nominee when we began, all the council teachers already knew we were together. they just didn't say it out. i didn't realize until in J2 when one of the teachers was talking to me - she knew i had a bf when i entered council and was actually worried that it would affect my work. but she was glad that i proved her wrong, and i'm glad i did too even through that period.

but back to the present, i'm actually afraid of that kind of feeling. one of being watched and monitored. of being known and my actions followed, especially since NYJC is a place that i go back to every year to facilitate in LTC - there's so much to be upheld. credibility, responsibility, ability. it's really going to be a challenging 3month journey. but i'm glad that not only will i have Youth Factory with me, but also yvon cause she's taking the other NYJC team - NY sent 2teams! so proud of them. ^^

): but i don't want to say why - i'll just say that i'm afraid to see the shadow of someone at the gates of another JC because i can imagine what someone was doing because i once did that for someone. cryptic - not really. i just don't want to explain cause it's so trivial. and because writing it down will make me look even weaker in the eyes of others.


(: on a happier note, i've been hooked on to Japanese mystery dramas recently. the first one is the 11-episode キイナ: 不可能犯罪捜査官 (or Kiina in english). only 6episodes have been aired and i'm looking forward to the rest of it. it's like CSI, but in a more Asian way with supernatural happenings having logical scientific explanations. best thing is, it's based on real life cases! the other show is another 11-episode ヴォイス: 命なき者の声 (or Voice in english) which is more on the medical side of things. something like House, but the Japanese one deals with dead people rather than living people with weird illnesses. HAH. good relaxation in between the stress of homework and what not. although they're not top-rated, super great dramas, i guess they will have to do. at least it's better than the taiwanese/korean crap.