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Friday, January 23, 2009

yah. i realized that i blog when i'm stressed or have some other negative emotions. and the more i blog, the more negative the situation is. sighs. i still can't get over what i read. i feel indignant and wronged by the person who said that. i mean, come on - with power comes responsibility. how can you get someone else to shoulder that responsibility when you hold the power. i've been wanting to blog about this since a few weeks ago when C started all her nonsense. a team can never be a team if the leader doesn't know where in the world he is going. seriously. this project was your brainchild. we gave you the green light. and now that the project is coming to an end, you want others to make decisions for you? responsibility girl, responsibility. i told you that you'll be able to go far, unlike C who will probably have to learn the hard way before she will be able to rise up in the ranks. X, i don't say this very often, but you have the talent and potential. just learn how to use it.

ok, maybe people will start complaining that i don't understand them and what not. tell you what girls/boys, MAKE ME UNDERSTAND. say it straight to my face as it is. nope. i don't always say everything i bitch about from just my POV alone. like if i really did, i would be at home, NOW. and not in hall. understand? you have fun. i sacrifice. and you bitch about me. WOW!

fine, so i am slightly pissed at you. what's with the "she cannot make decisions herself without consulting others, even if she the vice chair ... sorry ah i quite pissed w her." - find it familiar? that's your message word for word. and you know what, it's called RESPECTING AUTHORITY. you want me to make the decisions, it's as easy as pressing a button and you, would be powerless to do anything. your brainchild, your project, i just make sure everything runs smoothly and is in right order. i cannot take over or else the project will fail like the first project that we launched. our dear chair took on too much authority and the project manager became complacent. you want to become like that, fine. the chair and i will not scold you. we'll not punish you by making you embarrassed or anything. we'll just have to deal with the situation and with you as we think you deserve.

OMG. i can f- bitch till the morning on this subject
but i won't. i need my sleep.

sighs more. other things are bothering me too. but i just can't pinpoint them.
i'll just leave it at this i guess.