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Wednesday, January 28, 2009

OMG! i've been MIA for like 5DAYS! totally can't believe it? well, that's because i didn't bring my laptop home for the CNY holidays. OH! Happy Chinese New Year. 恭喜發財！ 萬事如意！ 年年有餘！ 步步高升！yes. that's about all i know how to greet in Chinese during the new year. it was mostly boring. went relative visiting, escaped the country for a but and then, back to hall, life and studying. reunion dinner was different this year because we had a poolside BBQ instead of some stifling restaurant. oh, the angbaos and the food. lols.

yeap. nothing much happened the past few days because i'm not thinking about anything, not expecting anything to happen. talked to BBFF before the CNYs and well, figured that i'm not going to have any expectations from that committee anymore. really. whatever will be will be? i'm still very afraid that that committee will be a failure because of all the crap that's going on right now, but i believe that what has to happen will happen. there are things that i want to say, but i can't because i'm not supposed to. it would look bad on management and well, people will just think i'm bitching around. i have a thought somewhere at the back of my mind that says "go show them how it's done, they've got potential", but then, they'll have to perform to what i expect them to do, which is not bloody possible the way i see it now. upper management has two people who don't even know what they're supposed to do. where will my expectations get me? NOWHERE. seriously. well, i don't really know what to do with that committee as of the current second, but, i'll just let it run and the evil thought that is going through my mind right now says "let them fail and see how they fail." oh, that is so damn bad. it shouldn't be that way. i have to get that thought OUT!

BBFF's coming in about a week! can't wait. :) can't say that i'm totally read for what is going to and what might happen, but, i'm keeping my options open for now. although i have a feeling i might close in on a decision soon. well, i don't know. was telling my girls today that i'm not looking for a boy yet. i'm just looking for _oys. fill in the blank if you can. the past month, there was someone who was potentially a boy. but, we're both not looking. nope. in fact, i think i'll never be looking for one. i can't love anyone. random remark that might become untrue in a few years, but for now, it's true. it's not because i love someone else, but it's because i just don't want to love. it's tiring. although rewarding, but still - tiring. no offense to people who are attached, but yeah. we all live different lives. it's always a choice.

just came back from BELLA'S PLAY! OMG! it was brilliant - the storyline, the set, the characters. :) and the actors really put in a lot to bring out this play which is very hard to related to because none of them are married, divorced or gay. being a dramatist too, i know how hard it is to portray certain roles. they weren't perfect, but given the time and effort they spent rehearsing and rehearsing, really, these people know what the word dedication mean. :D

going out at the ungodly hour to celebrate the success of bella's play. 12:19am. crap. i'm really not caring about sleep anymore. :P