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THE BLOG! :) obviously, but also to a world of wonders and mysteries
that are to be unraveled because that's precisely what SHE (or rather
me,) is all about. if you know me, welcome to another side of me.
but if you don't know me, it's okay. i still welcome you into a world of me
and what happens. i'm not anywhere near perfect, but here is where
i share my experiences and learnings. hope you'll be blessed reading
my entries!
LOVE YOU!
Saturday, January 17, 2009

I'M BACK IN HALL!
but i'll have to leave soon cause i need to help my parents out with stuff
and then i have to go for thanksgiving cell tonight.
busybusy/ worse than a bee! :(

Netball training this morning, but it was more of a watch my fellow netballers train cause i didn't get to play or anything. i only did warmups. :( well, i guess it's my fault cause i never really went for practice during the hols cause i was busy with other stuff and now, i'm not really that good a netballer. i mean, yah. i can pass the ball, i can defend a bit. but not much cause i'm still not used to all these sports things. tell you a secret: i love sports, but i can't play them for nuts. that's why i stick to running. but then, now i can't even run. sometimes i feel that slowly, one by one, the things & people that i love are being taken away from me... dancing, singing, now running. everything i ever loved and bothered about. maybe it's God's way of punishing me for all the wrongdoings that i have committed. but today, even though i didn't get to play, i still have fun with my Netball girls. :D

but on another note, i'm quite disappointed with another group of people. how incompetent can a person get? how inefficient can a person be? you know, i'd rather not know the answer because i'm already quite unhappy with them. i really don't want to say anything bad about them because i want to believe that they are able to do what i think they have not done. i want to believe that their potential is still there, that they just haven't proven it to me. but sooner or later, i think i'll have to be the bad guy. the person who was supposed to be the "devil" of our committee is now asking me the "angel" to be the "devil". i really want to say no because i know that once i take over, the whole committee will either buck up or become demoralized. :( God, i need strength and patience to do this, to take care of this committee that you have put in my stewardship.


i shall not say out this feeling in me
because i know that there can be no we
i don't want to fall for a person like thee
because i know it ain't decreed

but do you understand the importance
of words
not pretty nor hot, but simply
beautiful
do you know how much it means
to me

i can't forget your protective ways
i can't forget your caring deeds
i can't forget your gentle words
that carried me into my dreams

how can it be so right
when i know it's all wrong.