so, with that ranting done, let's break it down. my personal life, God will take care of that eventually. i just hope that it's sooner or later, but not a in-the-middle timing. i'm not ready to handle any of that just yet. God, clear my mind. i don't want to think about it. if it's him, i'm not ready yet. God, if it isn't him, can you tell me now? hall, is a totally new thing to me and i'm almost an in between of a phantom and a block comm-er. so weird right. between power and powerless. i'm almost going to go crazy. i want to find someone i can talk to in hall but everyone's got their own little cliques cause all of them went through orientation together. maybe it's just me thinking too much. but i don't know. God, can i have wisdom to deal with this? school, i just have to deal with it and ask God for more time!
God, all i can say is HELP!