actually now, even more than ever, i want to immerse myself in the world of music. day after day as i study my modules, i question myself as to why i'm doing this. the things that i learn now, i'll never really apply them to anything. but music, it's a passion. it's an interest. and it can become life too. but i have no other option. as the eldest, i have to take this path that is before me. i cannot veer to do something else because going through university is what i am expected to do. it's a responsibility. why, i ask myself, is this responsibility put on my shoulder? i, don't like it. i want to do music, be with music and BE the music.
sucks when you can't do that.