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Sunday, August 31, 2008

today was really a day of mixed emotions if you ask me. i'm really happy today because i rededicated my life to God again. for the first time in almost 2years, i'm going back because i really really love God again. not because of someone else. i'm starting my walk with God again because i really want to go further with Him, because i really saw what life was without him. God, i don't want to ever live without you again. i don't want to be out of your sight for even a single second.

but then again, it's been quite an emo day because i've been thinking about something, or rather someone. not exactly sad, but it's just that some things have happened recently and i've gotten to know some stuff as well. and really, if you were in my situation, you'd be as confused as me too. but one thing i know, i'm not going to call what i don't want to be as it is. i'm going to stop using that name on you because i don't want you to be that. even if i'm not the one, at least i know that i didn't confess it. i've been saying it for years. i don't know if i can reverse the damage done. but all i know is that i'm not going to confess it anymore. not with my mouth. 

i can't call you that anymore
because from even before time
you were more than that to me.

i can't lie to myself anymore
and i don't want to protect myself anymore
whatever will be will be

i pray God, that it'd be an answer
that doesn't break my heart.