i just finished watching the japanese drama "絶対彼氏" and it really made me think about alot of things. the rough storyline is of a robot built to be the perfect boyfriend for this particular girl. but as the story goes on, he slowly turns "human", having the emotions and ego that we have, overwriting his own program to prove that he really loves this girl with all his "heart". and what really hit me was that this robot with a heart of nuts, bolts and screws could go all out unconditionally for this girl. even though it was his programming working at first, but in the end, he really burnt himself out, literally, to make her happy, to ensure that she will always have a smile on her face.
it reminded me of the unconditional love of God and then, the selfish love of Man. Night, the robot, was bulit by the selfish love of Man to mimick the unconditional love of God. shows how much the world is crying out for love and to be loved. me, i will admit that i'm basking in that unconditional love of God, but i'm also waiting for a man who will give me that unconditional love as well, because i am waiting to give someone that unconditional love as well.
Riiko reminds me of myself. looking at her was like looking at the journey that i took since my last boyfriend. looking back now, i really was a selfish little brat. but i guess that's why i am human. i too, grow from experience. i too, grow from failure. selfish love says that you should keep loving me no matter what. unconditional love says, i love you no matter who you are and what you do. recently, i've been basking in God's unconditional love and it's really more than enough for me, so much so that i've been trying to give this love away because there's too much.
so, if i suddenly come up to you and hug you, it just means that i love you. =D
if you're free, go watch "絶対彼氏" online. it's also known as "Absolute Boyfriend" on crunchyroll.com. hahas.
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