dance routines and practices are getting harder and harder. Sab, our dance i/c is getting stricter and stricter as well during dance practices. the standards have been raised and we've been cleaning our dance for almost a week now. steps have been changing constantly and we've been scolded from time to time. but, it's all for Rag, and i think that it's really worth it.
dance has been the only thing that i look forward to everyday. dance is what i'm living for right now. and i finally went to the sinseh a few days ago. but i think it doesn't really help that one day after i took out the bandage with that smelly medicine, i started dancing again. i really can't help it because the pain is what's keeping me alive. hah. so many good and bad things have happened recently, and the pain, the dancing - they are my source of escape from reality. escape from whatever i see, whatever i'm going through, i run to dancing to take me away from it. sure, it's a temporary escape, but it works very well.
recently, as the days go by, i've found someone that i think is quite a potential. i've been eye-candying him for a while now, and as the days go by, he proves to be better than i thought. but because i don't know him at all, i can't say anything. and i've sworn never again to take the first step because it's really tiring to keep having to give without recieving - so he's not going to be my boy any time soon. but there are some irritating people who knew this little secret of mine and they make it so obvious that he's being eye-candied. and i was talking to my senior yesterday night, in a fluster because i knew he knew. hahas. and i think i really respect this senior i was talking to. she told me: " it might be a good thing that he knows because at least you'll be able to see what kind of person he is. some guys who know will sart giving you the cold shoulder, and those are the type who are not worth liking. others will still treat you normally, and these are the type whom you know are good."
i don't know how true this piece of advice is. but if it's true, i think he's really a good person. lols.
well, enough about him. the probability of him being mine = >10% (less than 10% - translated because i'm not sure if my sign is correct) for a various number of reasons. firstly because i don't know if he's a Christian. secondly, because i don't know him very well at all. thirdly, because i'm not going to "chase" him at all. i think it's just dumb for a girl to chase a guy. see, not going to work out anytime soon. hahas.
well, tomorrow it's back to dance at 9am! one hour earlier than usual. and later in the night (or rather, early morning) i'll be going down to help in the ME. i slept at 4am this morning and woke up at 9+. wonder if i can wake up tomorrow morning in time...
countdown to RAG : 2Weeks!
i really didn't want to like you
it's just that, you're too good to be true
but time and tide doesn't allow
the union of two souls so different from each other
the coming together of two people
who are not meant to be...
