that's what a senior said today. went for LTC pre-camp and was quite surprised because my group was very different from the one i led last year. but i guess that is why the seniors are willing to come back to school for more than 3years in a row to facillitate the new leaders of nanyang.

being a leader is not easy. and will never be easy. being a mentor to these new leaders is never going to be easy either. i realize that as i grow up, there's going to be a generation gap between me and the new leaders. the way we were treated and the way that they will have to be treated is vastly different. the dynamics of the people will always change. and this is where the challenge lies.

today's experience wasn't the best. but it only means that the leaders under me have a vast amount of potential to really grow. and as professor amy says, it will be my greatest satisfaction after camp breaks to see them having grown from what they were today. and i honestly pray that i will be able to help them become something more than what they are today because this is the ultimate goal of grooming leaders - to see them grow, spread their wings and fly independently, making a difference in even more people's lives.

judgements - i have to learn to put them away. especially after the level camp experience. somehow, i'm in a dilemma right now. should i? or shouldn't i? the answer is one that i know i should carry out and i guess that i have no choice but to do so. because i want to bring an open mind to camp, i want to see the best in people and believe that they have more potential than they are actually showing now. learning - going to LTC again as a mentor, it's going to be another different experience and i hope to grow a lot more than i did last year. i'm going to end my 18th year of life by learning even more than myself and learning new skills. everyday is about learning and it's a process that never stops.


on another note, as a RAG DANCER i found out when going to the first practice that the last few months, i've become more inflexible. all the months of not dancing is taking it's toll. i hope that nothing else will happen to me so that i can continue to dance. dancing, it's a way of life. it's a passion that people will never understand unless they experience it themselves. honestly. it's the same as me not being able to understand why some people are such avid gamers. theirs is a passion that i don't understand either. but it's the same passion that drives us to what we do.