everything that i do, say or even think
makes me remember the past.
our past. his present. my present.
and our futures
i really feel so lost
when can i get out of this
when can i really forget
when can i tell myself to accept the fact
that he's already with her
how can i like them both
both so far away from me
God, tell me what loving another is
then maybe i won't be so lost
i have a feeling that all this is linked to the fact
that i think i know where my future lies
i know where i am supposed to go
and i've known it for so long
but i just didn't want to listen
i didn't want to give in
but now the calling is so strong
that there's nothing i can do
to ignore it anymore
i don't want to give my best
i don't want to give me all
but that means that i'll be giving up on a dream
and giving up on my calling in life
what am i doing?
what should i be doing?
what kind of doors should i knock on?
which doors should i just close forevermore?