to celebrate the birthday of one of my colleges, i've just had two shots of tequila, one shot of whiskey and two bottles of beer. as usual, quelyn can't get drunk. i just become quite high and extremely red. but i realize that this has become somewhat of a routine to me. drinking at least one bottle of beer after knocking off everytime i work at the divan. i really wonder, what is it that i'm trying to forget. what is it that makes me hate the memory so much.