just went through my USP interview yesterday and i think tha tit was quite a challenge cause i'm in the midst of a throat infection. quite sad cause i can't sing, i sound funny, and i can't talk much. but more about that another time. the most important thing i want to blog about today is about my USP interview.

to me, it was quite tough and in the flesh, i personally feel that my chances of getting in are slim. HOWEVER, i am believing that by Daddy God's mercy, grace and power, I AM ACCEPTED INTO NUS's USP. i always hear people say that you are what you believe you are and the Bible says that by confessing with my mouth, it will come to pass. yes, you hear me, QUELYN IS A UNIVERSITY SCHOLAR! rar. hehes. and i know this is true because God grants the desires of my heart. <3

but i think the most important thing that i got out of the interview is the revelation of defending my faith. really. i have no idea how the interview turned out that way, but the moment i started speaking, all i talked about were things related to Church and the Bible and my belief in God. argh. this is something that i'm really really weak in because i think that personally, i haven't been giving God a lot of my time. but out of the blue, the interview turned into a "defend my faith" session. alot of things that i said were not exactly to my advantage, but the interviewers found me and my ideas "interesting" (i hope that's a plus point for me).

they were talking about things like spiritual revelation (Bible) versus natural revelation (personal experience) and to me, these two things are the same because they come by faith. but to the interviewers, they are two different things because the Bible = literature and personal experience = physical evidence. and in research, literature and physical evidence are really two different things. honestly, i could have just argued my way through, but i chose to defend my faith. but i realized that i didn't really know how to.

but i guess the most important thing is that i defended my faith even though it meant that i cut my chances of getting into the program that i wanted to be in. but after much afterthought, i know that what i did was right because with God, nothing can ever go wrong.

but this also revealed that i haven't been spending enough time waiting on the Lord and just listening to Him. somethings that i have been doing are wrong. i'm more like Martha. but now, i have to be more like Mary.