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me,) is all about. if you know me, welcome to another side of me.
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Wednesday, February 13, 2008

freak.
i'm suddenly having a really bad feeling
it makes me emo-er than before
but what can i do?
i just take life as it comes to me.

honestly, if you still don't know
i'm juggling three jobs
my day job as an admin asst.
8.30am to 5.45pm
my night job as a bartender.
7pm to 2am
my weekend job as a tutor.
4hours of tutoring straight on sat morns
and i'm doing all this to run away from reality
i'm going back to 2007
where i buried myself in council work
just to forget him

but now that emotional scar is healed
and we're good friends
i suddenly have to take another blow
personal blows are worse than relationship ones
and this one, i don't think i'll ever heal

but all in all, the only thing that keeps me hanging on
is none other than God/Jesus/Daddy.
without Him, i'd still be suicidal
without Him, i'd be dead already
without Him, i seriously don't wanna know how wrecked i'll be

i feel like dying
i've got many friends
but none close enough to ramble to
my brothers have their own lives
and i don't want to bother them

"she puts on a strong front to hide the bleeding princess within"

i want to cry
but i can't
i want to scream
but i can't
i want to complain
but i can't
i want a shoulder to lean on
but i don't have one
somebody save me