Wednesday, November 21, 2007

YES!
OHMYGOD!
IT'S OVER!!

hahahas.
i can finally do anything and everything
without having to study!
hmm.. there's so many things coming up
CIB dinner, Council Farewell dinner for the NS guys
PROM NIGHT! Post Prom Party!
Council BBQ & Chalet

wahhh!
and that's just until the first week of december
next i have to start WORK!
i've got a job at Cathay
but i don't know how i'll do cause it's my first job
and then i have to prep for my holidays
and of course, studying in taiwan
woohoo!
ah. then after that i have to come back to singapore
for university.
and, that's where all the FUN starts!
wahahaha

HAPPY!

Friday, November 16, 2007

好羡慕！
sometimes i wonder if one day
i'll have people who are closer to me than family
i've seen it happen to others
but will it happen to me?

even closer than sisters, S.H.E. wrote the song "老婆"
and like brothers, Fahrenheit will be there for each other
if i step into the industry, will i be able to have a group like them too?
honestly, i don't know
i can only pray that one day
i'll meet a group of people who will become more than family

i love the family that i have now
but sometimes, the empty house gets cold
and i'm all alone with only me and my thoughts
maybe one day, we'll learn to treasure each other
but for that day to come, one of us must leave first
and that person who will leave, i know clearly, will be me

Monday, November 12, 2007

爽!

hahas. today was literature paper one.
ohmygawd! i'm like going to do so well for literature.
no matter what happens, i'm going to do very well for all my papers!
i don't know why i'm so HIGH today.
maybe it's because the dramas that i've been waiting for
are finally in singapore
or maybe it's because i don't feel like mugging for econs
or maybe it's because i'm watching 终极一家.
goodness. they've already shown the whole serial in taiwan already
and in singapore, we're just getting wind of 终极一班.
goodness! singapore is seriously lagging.

ohno! what if i go to taiwan and just sit in front of the telly the whole day!!
it's like, totally no life.
ok, so i won't do that.
especially if i'm going there to study chinese
hah. i'm going to be a chinese expert soon.
and, i can speak slight hokkien or 台语.
i think that's what my teacher says it's called
wahahaha.

here's a song to share with everyone

最爱还是你 by 唐禹哲

没开口的话怎样才能懂
我好想把画面倒带回头
你留在我心中熟悉的表情
每个温暖纯白的记忆穿越了距离

拥挤的人潮没有人知道
我偷偷想你嘴角就会笑
不要说对不起也不要问原因
就让世界不停的向前别忘记从前

最爱还是你这是我的决定
向宇宙相对的星互相吸引
慢慢就会靠近还是要爱你
时间会证明我爱你的勇气
牵着你的手才知道是永久

一辈子不放手

Friday, November 09, 2007

WOW!
even though the As have not finished
i'm feeling very excited because i have many new options
during my break before the university term starts in singapore

i can go to taiwan for either
1. one month - meet up with my old friend and just travel
2. three months - go to NTNU'S MTC to study for one term
3. SIX months!!! - still at MTC, studying for two terms
hahas!
but if i go there to study, i won't be able to meet up with my friend.
but if i go there to study, i'll meet even more friends!
argh. choices, AGAIN!

well, taiwan aside
i have to admit that i'm not mugging for my As
and i'm taking it quite easy
i study, but not a lot
but i'm not worried.
my future is in good hands
becuase the hands that hold my future
are the hands that hold the heavens as well!
Daddy God's hands must be HUGE!
hahas.

Thursday, November 08, 2007

i don't know what to say
i'm just bored and need to blogg something
well, today i had a full day
went to orchard with my friend, dania
then later went to her house

now i'm at home
supposed to be studying
but in the end, i can't

what's my aim in life?
i wonder. . .

音乐这条路很辛苦很寂寞
and they are very right to say that
people in the music and entertainment industry
they seem to have everything they want
fame. honour. glory. popularity.
but it all comes at a price。
how many people are willing to sacrifice it all?
just to fulfill that ambition that drives them

i don't know.
maybe i don't want to know
but, there are too many choices in life
australia? the navy? or music?
so many paths but only one that i can walk down

and i really don't know what i should do.

Monday, November 05, 2007

watching the 偶像据s that he's been in
i've slowly fallen for the type of characters he plays
the strong silent type who protects like a guardian angel
the determined one to keep things the way it is
either under wraps or out in the light
from the poor student to the rich 少爷
he seems to be able to play them out so well

but as i read interviews he's done
i realize how down to earth he is
and i can't help but envy his future wife
everything a girl wants, he's got
everything a girl needs, he'll definitely provide
he's not romantic, but actions speak louder than words

God, i want to meet someone like him
oh wait, God, can you give him to me?
=P

Saturday, November 03, 2007

have you ever heard the wind cruising past your ears?
what was the feeling like?
did you hear the sounds of freedom?

你是否听过春风在耳边吹过？
那是怎样的感觉？
你有没有听到自由的声音?

Friday, November 02, 2007

《不能说的秘密》是华文版的 "The Lake House".
只是，男女主角小伦与小雨相隔20年
而且，《不能说的秘密》比 Lake House 更浪漫

seriously, i really regret not going to see "Secret" in the movies
it would have been much better than watching it on VCD
but, i didn't have any choice.
i haven't gone to the movies for a long time
probably because i haven't found someone i want to go with

if only our reality could be like theirs
switching from one time period to another
i wouldn't mind having friends from other times
they probably wouldn't be as scheming as the people of today

i feel that it's such a waste for me to have given up the piano
now i really regret it because i see how much more i could have been
was it really worth it, to give up playing the one instrument that i loved？
and i guess that's what i meant by sacrificing everything
not many people know this, but my 初恋 was when i was in primary 6
we both liked each other, and we used to play the piano in the hall together
but on graduation night, he told me that he was migrating with his family
that was one of the most heartbreaking pieces of news that i've ever heard
but from that night onwards, i never touched the piano again

a few years later, when i was in secondary 4
a very promising pianist i knew of brought me back to the piano
he was full of talent and he caught my attention by writing a piece for me
but, he also made me realize that the 4years i had gone without practise
had made me useless.
everytime i touched the piano, wanting to prove myself wrong
i ended up only making myself more miserable
i can no longer play like i used to

it's kind of sad, thinking about this now as i take my Alevels
thinking back, i could have taken the Music Elective Program
right now, i could have been learning about Chopin, Bach
i could be writing a thesis on Beethoven instead of Hip-Hop

but i'm not.

i'm not...

i'm not...

i was just going through iTunes and i found this song
it's quite sweet, yet heart-wrenching
but the key it's in is quite low, hard to sing
oh well. have to wait till i have the time
i really feel like transposing it on the spot
but my brain cannot take it.

the song reminds me of a time long long ago
the past fews days...
hahas. i guess it's because it's been raining
alright. enjoy.
you can find the song on mp3.baidu.com

聽見 - 方雅賢

你不开心的眼
仿佛将我推到悬崖边缘
距离就算在靠近眼前
我们一样没交点

没有你的世界
就像寒冬没有春天依偎
少了你陪在身边
我的四季只剩下冬天

悲伤喜悦回忆不断重演
静下来的世界
有我的思念
也有你的空虚无边

你有没有听见
寂寞的声音悄悄在蔓延
它住进我们之间
消耗着我和你的永远
你有没有听见
思念的呼唤传遍每条街
就算你走的再远
累了回头我就在你的身边

Thursday, November 01, 2007

second paper of my Alevels came and went today
the invigilators that i've had so far were really nice
yesterday we had two very kind-looking old men
they remind me of my grandfather.
today, we had a very pretty young lady teacher
she was very sweet and even wished us 'all the best'

i feel that i've been very lucky
God really is shining His light upon my life
and that's what i'll continue to believe
studies are ok. family is ok.
friends are definitely ok.

so what's left is my love life
but i promised myself that i wouldn't
i'm not going into another relationship
i don't want to hurt myself
after my last relationship
i finally realized what kind of lover i am
i used to think that i liked to play around
boys = toys.
that's what we used to say in secondary school

but looking back at my the first serious relationship i've had
i realize that i can sacrifice everything and anything
just for the one i love
but it scares me because i will really give up every single thing
but if he doesn't appreciate it, all i'll get is tears in return

he came to ask me out again
but i rejected him
i like him, but i don't love him
or maybe...
i just don't want to get hurt again

but the past few days as i tried to study
i find myself floating away from reality
and going into a bubble of my own
i've started to like a character
he's not even real
but i wish he was

then again, maybe floating in a bubble is good
it takes me away from the reality of studying
takes away the stress and allows me to be in my own world
a little bit of fantasy never hurts