tomorrow is my very first paper
it somehow makes me nervous
yet i feel relieved as well.
it has come. it has started.
and i can't wait for it to end

after my Alevels, there's Christmas
there's Taiwan. there's the Philippines.
there's Mynmar. there's China.
so many things that i want to do
and i have a feeling 9months ain't enough

as i was studying today, i was thinking
about the path i want to take
the dreams that i want to achieve
i realize that it's a road that is going to be lonely
a journey that is going to be very tough
but one that i will feel the most fulfilled in

lonely because i will have less time for friends
family. my cell group. my j'crowd. my 29thSC.
i may have to leave them all behind in singapore
and once i reach my dreams, i will have no privacy
lonely, yet not alone.
at that time, i'll only have God with me
i will have my friends and family with me in spirit
but all of them will be leading their own lives
gathering together at events that i won't be able to join them

tough because the fight starts now
the dreams start now.
the training starts now.
i have that dream.
but i have to work to it.
there are alot of sacrifices involved
there is alot of hardwork involved
there is alot that i will have to give up
there will be objection from many people
and in the end, not many will support me initially
especially my parents

but no matter what, i shall encourage myself
quelyn, you can do it! you can fight it~
without determination, there is no success
without hardwork, there is no result

first battlefield: tomorrow's examination hall (& for the rest of the month)
next battlefield: my physical health
ultimate battlefield: the road and journey to my dream!

GO! GO! GO!