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Monday, October 29, 2007

another one more day to my first paper
and i'm still not in the mood to study
i've been trying all weekend
but all i've done is to stress myself further
but you know what's the weirdest thing?
as i'm trying to study, i can't get anything into my mind
but, what i get is more and more song lyrics
songs that i like to sing
lyrics that i want to write

goodness.
i really really want to give up studying
and just pursue my dream
in my youth, i just want to do crazy things
chase after what i want
so that when i'm older, i won't regret
but under the singapore system
everything has to be about results, merit
and i can give them that
but, it's not what i want

i really wish that i had more supportive parents
i envy those people whose parents let them chase their dreams
when i talked to my parents about my dreams
they tell me to be more practical
get a job in the government or civil service
but i don't want to waste the rest of my life in an office

what i really want is to stand up on a stage
dance, sing, act.
and in my own way, impact the youth of my generation
once i've made a name for myself
i want to use that name to help the less fortunate
i want to do lots of charity work
i want to make money and build schools
i want to build orphanages
i want to build hospitals
i want to impact the society

but first, i have to chase that dream
i can write lyrics
i can sing, i can act
as far as i know
since my toddler days
i've been to classes
i've been performing on stage
in my primary school days
i was performing on stage at every occasion
chinese dance, drama, choir

damn
why did that passion die out once exams became important
i don't want to live my life this way anymore
exams. tests. lectures.
practical, but horrible.
i know i'm rambling.
but after the Alevels
everything is going to change
i'm going to give studying my all now
and when it's over
i'm going to chase my dream.