and i feel extremely inadequately prepared
it's been very hard to study
somehow, i just cannot find the heart to do so
and everyday, the little bit that i study
cannot be compared to what everyone else is doing
i feel a little panicky.
not because of the 'A's
but because i'm not studying
in this period of time
i haven't been a good christian either
somehow, i feel very disappointed in myself
when it comes to so many things
i see how inadequate i am
all that pampering and arrogance has come to naught
how i wish that i could do something now....
not studying
not being a good christian
then what am i good at?
they say that when we are at our weakest
God can work the strongest
no matter what i think
i want to believe that that is true
in my weakness, He is strong
and in the next 7days
there will be a huge miracle
i pray that this is
amen.