i've been wanting to blogg about a lot of things
but recently, there's been so much going on
and i haven't been studying much at all
my prelim grades, they're really a fluke
or, as i'd like to say, it was really the grace of God
in none of my own accord could i have gotten those marks

the past few days have been passed sleepily
it's only another 22days to my Alevels
and i'm still stuck in the rut of my drama serials
i tell myself that i'll have a lot of time after the 'A's
but somehow, my brain doesn't register this information
instead, all i'm dreaming about is of romance and an ambition

recently, one of the better things that i've been busying myself with
is something called a Last Lecture, Randy Pausch's to be exact
it made quite a stir in Yahoo! News a few days ago
and i spent an hour and a half watching a lecture
Prof. Pausch is dying of pancreatic cancer
and yet, he's living a fuller life than i ever have
because he has achieved his dreams
and is helping others achieve theirs

quelyn wants to fulfill her dream and help others fulfill theirs to
maybe it's too presumptuous of me to say this
but i feel that i can be the next Sun Ho of Asia
i've been blessed with nothing
except a great voice and a brain that thinks fast
my life has been controlled by my parents for long enough
and i'm going to break through the brick walls that are in front of me
Prof. Pausch said that brick walls are there to keep people out,
the people who do not want something badly enough.

i have the talent
i have the dream
so, what's stopping me?

actually, practically everybody
because they think that the
entertainment world is very
unstable and complicated.
i don't disagree with them
but i know that i have what
it takes to handle those people
i didn't get a brain like mine for
no reason, because everything God
does is for a reason.

and because i'm going to break down that brick wall in front
i'll have to start from the small steps
i've been giving up on myself for far too long
it's time to shape up and say sorry to myself for letting myself go
i'm giving myself a few months to be entertainment world-ready
hah.

but more than that, i'm still going for my Alevel certificate
i didn't waste 12years of my life for nothing
the singapore school system is one that relentlessly kills
but i have made it thus far
making me the creme de la creme of the 1989babies
and i will continue to be because
my Father in Heaven is the Alpha and the Omega
making me the head and not the tail!
hah.

i guess i've ranted enough
love all of you who are reading
hope you'll are doing the best
and all the best wishes for whatever you're doing.