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THE BLOG! :) obviously, but also to a world of wonders and mysteries
that are to be unraveled because that's precisely what SHE (or rather
me,) is all about. if you know me, welcome to another side of me.
but if you don't know me, it's okay. i still welcome you into a world of me
and what happens. i'm not anywhere near perfect, but here is where
i share my experiences and learnings. hope you'll be blessed reading
my entries!
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Saturday, September 01, 2007

she sat there, legs crossed, a cushion hugged in her embrace
so silent, so peaceful.
yet in her mind, pictures of herself
screaming in frustration was all that she could see
as she zoned back into reality
she realized where she was
she knew what she wanted to do
but, everything around her stops her from her dreams
she felt something on her cheeks
her hands brushed them
and then she realized
once again, she was silently crying

sounds like something out of a fanfiction? or a scene from a particular drama you once watched?

no. that's not it.
because this is reality.
this is reality.
my reality.

i would have been so much happier
somewhere else.

being a NYJCian has been a great journey
but as the pressure mounts
i don't know what i'm studying for
i don't want to study...

it's been my life dream to be on a stage, on a screen
but my parents have always objected.
they wanted me to study.
they said i'll have a great future

but will that future be happy?
what is happy?
to me, it would be dancing, singing, acting.
sure, i may not be famous
but i'd rather go through shit learning dance routines
getting scolded because i can't reach that note that my vocal coach wants me to
but not going through so much pressure just to get As at the 'A' levels.

"then why do you still work so hard?"
you may ask.

because i don't want to disappoint my parents.
i don't want to disappoint anybody.
i've never lived for myself.
and i guess i'll never will.

send me a guardian angel
who will watch over me
and love me as i am
don't expect anyone great
just a simple person
who loves simply