life's starting to get tiring.
i'm starting to get tired.
there are so many things that i want to do
so many things that i long to do
but so many obstacles along the way

is it worth it to fight for a dream that's so far away?
a dream that everybody dreams of, yet, only a few succeed.
is this dream and aspiration of mine something that God wants me to do?

as my life dropped into an all time low last year, someone came into my life
a long-lost person that i'd thought i'd never meet again.
but i did. and he came to be a very important person in my life.
when i was down and out, he comforted me.
when i was lost, he adviced me.
when i was weary, he lent me his shoulder.
when i was sad, he lent me his embrace.

he's my guardian angel...

but now, he's no longer mine.
perhaps he wasn't even mine to begin with.
he's my angel. but what am i to him?
i think i know the answer.
simple, but heartbreaking answer.
he's someone else's guardian angel now.
he's just a friend, a brother to me now.
but if, and if it really becomes an "over",

will you be my guardian angel?

quelyn is very happy with today because it was very fruitful
today's paper was KI Paper 1 aka. the essay paper.
although the second essay wasn't really up to standard cause i was tired and distracted
i think i did the first essay very very well. =D

and after the paper, mr mao had personalized CUPCAKES for us! hahas.
they were really pretty.
here's a look at them!
0602's!

hahas. and after that, we took a class photo.
i think it's the one and only class photo that's really complete
because all of us have different timetables
plus all the classroom politics going around...

other than that, i finally spent time with jing yan!
hahas. 6 years of friendship and counting.
although we're both in nyjc because of our timetables, we rarely meet
thank God for KI or else we'd really have totally different timetables!
went shopping with her today.
obviously, i did the shopping, she did the walking and trying to stop me spending
typical, never works, but i like it.

take me back to a time where i was carefree
and all i had to bother about was love.

*sigh.
i haven't been able to do my independent study
all because i'm going through a phase of
Se7olution! <3

someone's gotta stop me.

watching "Doomsday Volcanoes" on National Geographic was really an eye-opener
i realize that even the most destructive things in the word still look so beautiful
so serene, gorgeous, dazzling.
and yet so deceptive.
because underneath all the beauty is a force great enough to take out the whole of North America!

i was also watching "Big Bang" on MTV, and i really really love God for letting me watch that episode.
it was a repeat episode that i had caught before but had only watched the ending
today when i watched it right from the beginning, i saw my latest eyecandy!

Se7en! <3
the hottest, cutest korean singer around.
or at least until i find another cuter one.

alrights. i got to get back to writing my Independent Study
that's killing me and i wish i could kill it too...

as the seasons in life changed
i've been changing bloggs and to date
i think i have at least 17 other bloggs in Blogger and LiveJournal
perhaps not all under my name, but at least one variation of it.

but i think it's time i rein in my wild nature and settle down somewhere.
cause it's getting tiring to have to search for my memories.
how many have been lost because i couldn't remember a password or a username.

time to settle down & stop floating around.